I started writing the majority of this post yesterday but stopped at a scripture so I could meditate on the word that I had received during my moment of weakness. See. I woke up and my heart was heavy. Then, I read the words of someone close to me that made my heart even heavier. First, I had a sense of resentment toward the words that I read. Although, I know in my heart this person meant me no harm whatsoever, but my feelings were still hurt. In the midst of my negativity and sadness, I was distracted with the loud sound of pouring rain which calmed me because I love the rain so I said thank you, Lord!! It was God’s way of getting my attention to let me know to overcome my emotions and stay focused on the path that He has me on. Good distraction. This made me cry hard from my soul, and I asked God for strength and clarity. I wanted to know what this meant and why am I feeling this way? Why is my heart heavy?
I opened my Bible and the first scriptures that I read were Galatians 6:4-5 AMP.
But each one must scrutinize his own work [examining his actions, attitudes, and behavior], and then he can have the personal satisfaction and inner joy of doing something commendable without comparing himself to another. For every person will have to bear [with patience] his own burden [of faults and shortcomings for which he alone is responsible].
So, I meditated on this word to receive clarification from God. I love when something is already in me, and it is confirmed in the word that it is just. I always praise God because I know it is the Holy Spirit that leads me in the paths of righteousness. He is not a God of confusion. His way is made clear to all who seek clarification. That is why it’s important to not take people’s opinions or advice to heart, without seeking God first. My whole life, before I even realized it, whenever I am low in spirit: mad, agitated, frustrated, annoyed, resentful, sad, overwhelmed, hurt, or whatever negative emotions that steal my peace of mind, I turn to God. I always check and correct myself with God’s direction on how I should be, not how I am. Learning self-control and self-discipline from myself. This is how I built and still build my relationship with our Creator. Through this process, I have learned to put my complete faith in Him as I am perfected in His love. He has been all so faithful in leading me. I have been quiet for so long because I never wanted to be in conflict with anyone. Often, how people can make you feel with their expressions of opinion, will make you want to check them before you check yourself. Then, here goes the fight of respecting one another’s mind and position in their life which is what we must do, regardless if we disagree with one another. Always check yourself and move around if deemed necessary for your peace of mind. Proverbs 12:18 AMP, reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise bring healing. I will always choose to speak life. We must remember, it’s not what you say, it’s how you say it. God is kind, not harsh.
